concession

I'm bothered. Really bothered. i don't know if i did something wrong to joey or what. I really don't have an idea. If there's a person who was badly hurt of the things that had happened, its not him in the first place. I had sacrificed many things for him, and yet it was not enough. With the very hectic schedule that I have, I still managed to help him. I missed classes for the most part just to cover some news for him. I never complained because I thought all this time he respected me. Or shall i say i have no right to complain. okay, fine with me. I still help him because I know he needs my help, and i won't be selfish when it comes to that matter.

I never thought I would be hurt this badly all because of him. I swallowed my pride just to keep our friendship, but i can't take it anymore--its too much.

A friend of mine told me that joey hates gays. as in hate-HATE-. Okay, he hates gay fine with me. I'm gay, so i conclude he hates me. But i still continue to help him because he needs me. I did not talk to him about this matter because i have no right to do so. When he asked me to remove his pictures in my friendster account, i did. because i want to keep him. I just can't understand why am i doing those things. i really don't know why.

Why is it so easy for him to hurt me. If only he knew how I cried at night every time I he neglected what I've done for him. Fine with me. I have no right to let her know how i really feel inside.

But everything will come to its end, and this would be the last time that i will talk about JOEY. He is my first love, and i will never love again. I don't want to get hurt again and again and again.

I've said this before, and i'll say this again. He can never be mine. And to forget him is the best solution to end up all my misery.